Bored...Mad....Happy....love.....Annoyed

It's been a very long time since I've put anything on this site.i felt like i didn't have any idea to throw up and start writing...there`s a lot of things going on lately as i felt like i need to give a rest to my brain and my body as well..some of my friends are busy doing their research proposal and maybe the rest are still on vacation i guess...ahaks.ONCE Again i was completely different from them.i`am a teacher now. does it sounds good right?..haha,now..I'm going to talk to you about some interesting facts about teaching.Personally,i hate school,yelling at your students and make them follow all of your instructions, i hate the fact that my core business and clients are students.Teach the special kids will be more easier and fun compared with normal average kids whose stubborn..these kids nowadays are not respect the elder.



Sometimes teaching isn`t right for you,despite a good experience.In my case, being an occupational therapist suit me more.Teaching is a long roller coaster ride full of twists and turns and butterfly-inducing loops.What i`m trying to say is,being a teacher is not just like you enter your class and teach,then finished...NO...it`s full of passion, interest,experience,patience and responsibility,,,your students bring up your name,,remember that!!..what path they choose, what they want to be, what kind of people they will be in the future..it`s all reflex your role..and again you will get blame for that even though you put everything you had, you did your very best but unfortunately,it just didn't work out...very frustrating,very disappointing..this is the challenging part being a teacher.One of the tough things in joining any career field is that you get to seek the dark side of it very well..And now i know, how does it feel to be a teacher...The good side of it, i have one great story to share to you..

I must say that :“Appearances are often deceiving.”

When it comes to appearance, I’m the one who mostly care. I have fair skin and rounded face with double chin and I can say my lower limb is positively thin. I’m about 5'4", and I weigh 120 pounds. I hate this number and I’m quite concerned about my body weight but I just couldn’t stop eating. Eating has offering me with pleasurable feeling. Having a great figure like Jessica Biel or Scarlet Johansson is something that every girl dreamed of, but I don`t think I have enough effort for it. I need to be more specific on my goal and stick to a diet and exercise routine without sacrifice lots on my food or grounded for exercise. I am not into routines at all, but exercising has always been difficult for me. Thus, I always find something nice to wear. I like clothes, accessories and stuff like that. I always try to wear something very simple but exquisite. I go for things that I'm really comfortable in. I wear things that really look nice on me, something flashy but not too loud and things that flatter my shape.

I`m not really branded person but I do love clothes from Dolly and shoes from Nose, Vincci, Carlo Rino and Crocs. I`m not looking at the price or brand. If I love the design, bags, shoes and outfits from Lot 10 or Times Square or even at Petaling Street seems okay to me .Style is what you make out of what you have. Not to mention, I do love watches and I always want anything from Elle. Style is you, your person, your own packaging, what you are known for and everything that makes you who you are is your style. I do admire the way some people dress and sometimes they are influenced my style a little bit.
Sometimes, I ask advice and opinions from my friends regarding fashion but it doesn’t mean I have to agree with them all the time. One more thing, I didn’t like my posture, my mother and my boyfriend always said that I’m slouching in most of the time. I hate the fact, but they were right. Therefore, I need to improve my posture. Well, all college life involves a lot of sitting around and when my back muscles are tired, I tend to slump down. I think I need to work out on my posture because some people said that posture reflexes your confidence. I don’t want them to judge me just because I’m having this posture.

About myself...

My name is Hidayah but my friends call me ‘doyek’. I know it`s sound weird but I’ve got that name since I was 13 .I was born on 24th may, 1987 at Malacca General Hospital .We are staying in Malacca for almost 3 years before my family moved on to Muar. I Have 4 siblings and I’m the eldest. Wells, i do have a lot of responsibilities as the eldest. I have to set an example to them and encouraged them lots to give the best in education.

My mother works as a chief clerk at Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan, Parit Setongkat. I can say that she was the most wonderful mother ever with full of passion and determinations. My father passed away when I was about 7 while my youngest sister was still in the womb. I can`t imagine how difficult moment my mom ever had in her life. We do lots of great things together and I love it that way, be with family and having conversation until midnight.

I'm an occupational therapy student and should finally graduate with my bachelor's in 2011! I can't wait. I had an experienced been working with autistic children for 4 months and it has been the most exciting experience of my life. Up in till the day i started working i have never been in the company of an autistic child, so at first it was a little intimidating. But then, I found that working with autistic children is not as tough as people assume it to be. It is an enriching experience for me as an individual, and can give me totally immense satisfaction.

I love watching movies, writing, listen to music, go places I've never been before, hang out with some coolest friends (probably 1, 2 person, not in a group of 5 or 6 people), talking on the phone and go shopping. My favorite store is mid valley. I listen to anything from Coldplay to Kelly Clarkson. It just inspires me all the way around. I listen to all kinds of music which is mostly rock or something mellow. For me, a great day consists of hanging out with my friends, laughing and listening to a great music.
My favorite foods are Spaghetti Bolognaise and sushi. I know it`s kind of western but it`s always not enough everytime I ate it. I don’t like animals because I can`t stand the smell plus I don’t have time to entertain myself with those pets thing. I love caffeine, not only it makes me alert but the taste just so like heaven.

money is the root of evil

For the first time, aku nak berblogging bercerita tntang duit..Dah lama rasanya tak mengarang dalam bahasa Melayu.Mungkin karangan aku tidak sebaik org lain..Tapi untuk post kali ni,aku lebih selesa mggunakan "malay wording"...kenapa? Sbb orang Melayu sinonim dengan kemiskinan.Bangsa Melayu jauh ketinggalan jika hendak dibandingkan dengan bangsa lain di Malaysia ni..Bukan setakat poket kosong tapi ilmu pun cetek,perilaku yg terserlah dgn kebodohon...Aku hanya melepaskan geram terhadap segelintir orang Melayu yg tinggi ilmunya tetapi cetek mentalitinya...Masih berfikir di takuk lama...

Aku berharap aku bukan lah di kalangan mereka-mereka yang tidak pernah bersyukur dengan apa yg mereka ada selama ni...Ada setengah org ni mcm x pernah cermin diri mereka,selalu menyalahkan orang lain...........kadang-kadang kuman di seberang laut nampak, gajah depan mata tak nampak..Mungkin pada sesiapa yg ada membaca "post" aku ni, dah dpt membayangkan insan-insan disekeliling mereka yang hampir serupa dengan apa yang aku maksudkan tadi..Aku ni cuma seorang pelajar UITM yang bukan dari jurusan-jurusan hebat seperti kedoktoran,kejuruteraan atau lain-lain jurusan yang seangkatan seperti itu..Aku ni tak lebih hanyalah seorang pelajar dari fakulti kesihatan,program pemulihan carakerja.

Aku percaya aku punya kelebihan, aku punya keazaman dan aku selalu mahukan yang terbaik untuk keluarga aku,untuk diri aku dan untuk orang-orang yang selama ni menyokong aku...Aku bukan la dilahirkan genius atau cerdik,tapi aku percaya satu hari nanti aku akan berada di atas,di hormati kerana kedudukan....tHE ONLY thing money can offer..If money is your hope for independence you will never have it. The only real security that a man will have in this world is a reserve of knowledge, experience, and ability.......setinggi mata kita berdiri,jangan lupa bahawa semua ni pinjaman Allah di dunia...

Cleaning process will begin soon!

Its always been difficult finding a word to start your post and i need to get my brain work faster or i might get stuck somewhere in the middle.sometimes,i have thought blocking but still want to start writing even though i know that i will messed up with all the words and grammars later on.

Today is Thursday but I don't even start preparing my bag and packing all the stuffs to go to Dungun this coming Sunday.My aunt`s has booked me a month ago and i promised to help her with all the wedding`s preparation especially cleaning the house.I can imagine how difficult it will be,the house so big and every single space in it needs to be fix,i mean there`s lots of things to be done.you have to clear all of the unwanted stuffs,throw away all the unused materials and it must be a lot of washing,mopping and cleaning..I can`t finish it by myself,alone and i really need my cousin`s to help me with all those things..We need to work together...

I will give my best to makesure the house looks neat and tidy on the wedding`s day..For the moment,I don't know how severe my aunt`s house is,but i need to do some checklist first before starting anything.In addition to that,i also need to ask my aunt for any priority that she felt i have to do it first.However,i have one problem here, regarding my practical that will be started on 14 June 2010 which is 2 days after the wedding.the problem is, i need to have an enough preparations so that i wont feel blank or empty on my first day of clinical practice..I want to give a very good impression because last time when i went there for my practical session during my diploma level, i didn't do well..Therefore, i want to prove that this time i can perform better and be more confident..Currently,I`m very busy finding the topic for my research..I can tell you how tough it is..I need to arrange an appointment with my supervisor,checking my email plus searching for current and update research and articles as a reference...But, I know i can handle it even though i`m at my aunt`s house,doing two things at one time.Whatever it is,I need to clarify with her first so that i can have my own time to do those studies thing..I can manage it and i guess it is not such difficult as i thought it could be..Believe in yourself, be sincere in everything you do..Insyaallah, He will help you on your way down to success....

Talking about my practical,i still feel nervous about it,u know its been about 2 years i left hospital and not applying my knowledge towards patients..what i need to do is refresh back all the practice,lessons and knowledge i gained when i was in diploma and combine with all the things i know during my degree.it should be okay i guess....good luck to me!! :)

Mono : The line of best fit music!!

When I felt sad,I listened to Mono..Since my brother introduced this post rock band to me, I became much more acquainted.It is one of those rare albums which I fall in love with at the first listening..Mono music especially follow the map makes me dream.It has the power to bring my mind somewhere else..

I can feel those sufferings and emotions that Mono try to reach their listeners through the songs.Even though it has no lyrics,it is full of strong and powerful melody which can break your heart and make you cry...Whenever i feel sad,i cannot think anything better rather than listening to Mono; Follow the map..I also like the music video.It is one of the best music video i ever seen on you tube.The video and music fit together.it s so sad to look at yet so beautiful which draws out something bittersweet...I can honestly say that mono music is very quiet and peaceful.last words,follow the map has managed to tap the sound of my soul..get rid all of the sadness that love has bring..before i end up, i must say that Mono music is nothing more than a portrait of our everyday`s life...thanks to them for creating such a wonderful melody..

the newbie at dataran shah alam..here we are!!

thanks Nisah for capturing every single moment with ur high tech digital camera..very happening!! check out this photo..


it was a best nite ever!!


nurul and me just got tired after photography session,but we still keep smiling...:)

this is my 5th time at ict...quite bored here..seeing hundreds of couples sharing their great moment together.i must say that i`m not giving so much attention with those light things cause every single thing there remind me of him...ahaks


i`m giving my best pose here,but then the "shaky hand cameraman" giving me this kind of blurred image..but we still looking good and hot in there...bravo..

dont be afraid to admit that you love edward cullen

i just coming back from having a wonderful partying with my classmates..tonight was a great night ever i guess....i already clear up all my closet,pack up all the books and clothes and now sitting in front of the laptop looking for a best blog template..haha..not to mention,i just figured out how much i love blogging..

i did some changes with this blog..i hope you like it.i guess i found myself even more obsessed with the character Edward Cullen (the only reason why i`m picking up this template).

me,myself and i....

i just started my blog and made my first entry, trying to find my sweet spot in writing..i love writing as much as i can write up to 20 pages..i`m still new and don't know where to start..its kinda weird to talk much about your life and share your thought with others when you are not used to it.But then, i know blog is another way to cope with stress.it is a great way to get things off of your chest.Plus,I have a lots of things going on lately and this probably would be a good start for me..

However,I don't know how long i can keep up with this blog things, its really frustrating when you have dozens (or hundreds) of ideas,but no time to actually write them.hope this blog will be interesting as much as it can be.not only for me but also for the readers as well...:)